Poetry

With Walker in Nicaragua

by Joaquin Miller

  • That man who lives for self alone
  • Lives for the meanest mortal known.

  • I.

  • He was a brick: let this be said
  • Above my brave dishonor'd dead.
  • I ask no more, this is not much,
  • Yet I disdain a colder touch
  • To memory as dear as his;
  • For he was true as God's north star,
  • And brave as Yuba's grizzlies are,
  • Yet gentle as a panther is,
  • Mouthing her young in her first fierce kiss.

  •  A dash of sadness in his air,
  • Born, may be, of his over care,
  • And may be, born of a despair
  • In early love — I never knew;
  • I question'd not, as many do,
  • Of things as sacred as this is;
  • I only knew that he to me
  • Was all a father, friend, could be;
  • I sought to know no more than this
  • Of history of him or his.

  •  A piercing eye, a princely air,
  • A presence like a chevalier,
  • Half angel and half Lucifer;
  • Sombrero black, with plume of snow
  • That swept his long silk locks below;
  • A red serape with bars of gold,
  • All heedless falling, fold on fold;
  • A sash of silk, where flashing swung
  • A sword as swift as serpent's tongue,
  • In sheath of silver chased in gold;
  • And Spanish spurs with bells of steel
  • That dash'd and dangled at the heel;
  • A face of blended pride and pain,
  • Of mingled pleading and disdain,
  • With shades of glory and of grief —
  • The famous filibuster chief
  • Stood front his men amid the trees
  • That top the fierce Cordilleras,
  • With bent arm arch'd above his brow; —
  • Stood still—he stands, a picture, now —
  • Long gazing down the sunset seas.

  • II.

  •  What strange, strong, bearded men were these
  • He led above the tropic seas!
  • Men sometimes of uncommon birth,
  • Men rich in histories untold,
  • Who boasted not, though more than bold,
  • Blown from the four parts of the earth.

  •  Men mighty-thew'd as Samson was,
  • That had been kings in any cause,
  • A remnant of the races past;
  • Dark-brow'd as if in iron cast,
  • Broad-breasted as twin gates of brass,Men strangely brave and fiercely true,
  • Who dared the West when giants were,
  • Who err'd, yet b ravely dared to err,
  • A remnant of that early few
  • Who held no crime or curse or vice
  • As dark as that of cowardice;
  • With blendings of the worst and best
  • Of faults and virtues that have blest
  • Or cursed or thrill'd the human breast.

  •  They rode, a troop of bearded men,
  • Rode two and two out from the town,
  • And some were blonde and some were brown,
  • And all as brave as Sioux; but when
  • From San Bennetto south the line
  • That bound them in the laws of man
  • Was pass'd, and peace stood mute behind
  • And stream'd a banner to the wind
  • The world knew not, there was a sign
  • Of awe, of silence, rear and van.

  •  Men thought who never thought before;
  • I heard the clang and clash of steel
  • From sword at hand or spur at heel
  • And iron feet, but nothing more.
  • Some thought of Texas, some of Maine,
  • But one of rugged Tennessee,—
  • And one of Avon thought, and one
  • Thought of an isle beneath the sun,
  • And one of Wabash, one of Spain,
  • And one turned sadly to the Spree.

  •  Defeat meant something more than death;
  • The world was ready, keen to smite,
  • As stern and still beneath its ban
  • With iron will and bated breath,
  • Their hands against their fellow-man,
  • They rode—each man an Ishmaelite.
  • But when we topped the hills of pine,
  • These men dismounted, doff'd their cares,
  • Talk'd loud and laugh'd old love affairs,
  • And on the grass took meat and wine,
  • And never gave a thought again
  • To land or life that lay behind,
  • Or love, or care of any kind
  • Beyond the present cross or pain.

  •  And I, a waif of stormy seas,
  • A child anmong such men as these,
  • Was blown along this savage surf
  • And rested with them on the turf,
  • And took delight below the trees.
  • I did not question, did not care
  • To know the right or wrong. I saw
  • That savage freedom had a spell,
  • And loved it more than I can tell,
  • And snapp'd my fingers at the law.
  • I bear my burden of the shame,
  • I shun it not, and naught forget,
  • However much I may regret:
  • I claim some candor to my name,
  • And courage cannot change or die,
  • Did they deserve to die? they died!
  • Let justice then be satisfied,
  • And as for me, why, what am I?

  •  The standing side by side till death,
  • The dying for some wounded friend,
  • The faith that failed not to the end,
  • The strong endurance till the breath
  • And body took their ways apart,
  • I only know. I keep my trust.
  • Their vices! earth has them by heart.
  • Their virtues! they are with their dust.

  •  How we descended troop on troop,
  • As wide-winged eagles downward swoop!
  • How wound we through the fragrant wood,
  • With all its broad boughs hung in green,
  • With sweeping mosses trail'd between!
  • How waked the spotted beasts of prey,
  • Deep sleeping from the face of day,
  • And clashed them like a troubled flood
  • Down some defile and denser wood!

  •  And snakes, long, lithe and beautiful
  • As green and graceful bough'd bamboo,
  • Did twist and twine them through and through
  • The boughs that hung red-fruited full.
  • One, monster-sized, above me hung,
  • Close eyed me with his bright pink eyes,
  • Then raised his folds, and sway'd and swung,
  • And lick'd like lightning his red tongue,
  • Then oped his wide mouth with surprise;
  • He writhed and curved and raised and lower'd
  • His folds like liftings of the tide,
  • Then sank so low I touch'd his side,
  • As I rode by, with my bright sword.

  •  The trees shook hands high overhead,
  • And bow'd and intertwined across
  • The narrow way, while leaves and moss
  • And luscious fruit, gold-hued and red,
  • Through all the canopy of green,
  • Let not one shaft shoot between.

  •  Birds hung and swung, green-robed and red,
  • Or droop'd in curved lines dreamily,
  • Rainbows reversed, from tree to tree,
  • Or sang low hanging overhead
  • Sang low, as if they sang and slept,
  • Sang faint like some far waterfall,
  • And took no note of us at all,
  • Though nuts that in the way were spread
  • Did crush and crackle where we stept.

  •  Wild lilies, tall as maidens are,
  • As sweet of breath, as pearly fair
  • As fair as faith, as pure as truth,
  • Fell thick before our every tread,
  • In fragrant sacrifice of ruth.
  • The ripen'd fruit a fragrance shed
  • And hung in hand-reach overhead,
  • In nest of blossoms on the shoot,
  • The very shoot that bore the fruit.

  •  How ran lithe monkeys through the leaves!
  • How rush'd they through, brown cland and blue,
  • Like shuttles hurried through and through
  • The threads a hasty weaver weaves!

  •  How quick they cast us fruits of gold,
  • Then loosen'd hand and all foothold,
  • And hung limp, limber, as if dead,
  • Hung low and listless overhead;
  • And all the time with half-oped eyes
  • Bent full on us in mute surprise —
  • Look'd wisely, too, as wise hens do
  • That watch you with the head askew.

  •  The long day through from blossosm'd trees
  • There came the sweet song of sweet bees,
  • With chorus-tones of cockatoo
  • That slid his beak along the bough,
  • And walk'd and talk'd and hung and swung,
  • In crown of gold and coat of blue,
  • The wisest fool that ever sung,
  • Or wore a crown, or held a tongue.

  •  Oh! when we broke the somber wood
  • And pierced at last the sunny plain,
  • How wild and still with wonder stood
  • The proud mustangs with banner'd mane,
  • And necks that never knew a rein,
  • And nostrils lifted high, and blown,
  • Fierce breathing as a hurricane:
  • Yet by their leader held the while
  • In solid column, square and file
  • And ranks more martial than our own

  •  Some one above the common kind,
  • Some one to look to, lean upon,
  • I think is much a woman's mind;
  • But it was mine, and I had drawn
  • A rein beside the chief while we
  • Rode through the forest leisurely;
  • When he grew kind and question'd me
  • Of kindred, home, and home affair,
  • Of how I came to wander there,
  • And had my father herds and land
  • And men in hundreds at command?
  • At which I silent shook my head,
  • Then, timid, met his eyes and said:
  • " Not so. Where sunny foothills run
  • Down to the North Pacific sea,
  • And Willamette meets the sun
  • In many angles, patiently
  • My father tends his flocks of snow,
  • And turns alone the mellow sod
  • And sows some fields not over broad,
  • And mourns my long delay in vain,
  • Nor bids one serve-man come or go;
  • While mother from her wheel or churn,
  • And may be from the milking shed,
  • Oft lifts an humble, weary head
  • To watch and wish her boy's return
  • Across the camas' blossom'd plain."

  •  He held his bent head very low,
  • A sudden sadness in his air;
  • Then turn'd and touch'd my yellow hair
  • And tossed the long locks in his hand,
  • Toy'd with them, smiled, and let them go,
  • Then thrumm'd about his saddle bow
  • As thought ran swift across his face;
  • Then turning sudden from his place,
  • He gave some short and quick command.
  • They brought the best steed of the band,
  • They swung a rifle at my side,
  • He bade me mount and by him ride,
  • And from that hour to the end
  • I never felt the need of friend.

  •  Far in the wildest quinine wood
  • We found a city old-so old,
  • Its very walls were turned to mould,
  • And stately trees upon them stood.
  • No history has mention'd it,
  • No map has given it a place;
  • The last dim trace of tribe and race —
  • The world's forgetfulness is fit.

  •  It held one structure grand and moss'd,
  • Mighty as any castle sung,
  • And old when oldest Ind was young,
  • With threshold Christian never cross'd;
  • A temple builded to the sun,
  • Along whose somber altar-stone
  • Brown, bleeding virgins had been strown
  • Like leaves, when leaves are crisp and dun,
  • In ages ere the Sphinx was born,
  • Or Babylon had birth or morn.
  • My chief led up the marble steep—
  • He ever led, through that wild land—
  • When down the stones, with double hand
  • To his machete, a Sun priest leapt,
  • Hot bent to barter life for life.
  • The chieftain drave his bowie knife,
  • Full through his thick and broad breastbone,
  • And broke the point against the stone,
  • The dark stone of the temple wall.
  • I saw him loose his hold and fall
  • Full length with head hung down the step;
  • I saw run down a ruddy flood
  • Of smoking, pulsing human blood.
  • Then from the wall a woman crept
  • And kiss'd the gory hands and face,
  • And smote herself. Then one by one
  • Some dark priests crept and did the same,
  • Then bore the dead man from the place.
  • Down darken'd aisles the brown priests came,
  • So picture-like, with sandal'd feet
  • And long, gray, dismal, grass-wove gowns,
  • So like the pictures of old time,
  • And stood all still and dark of frowns,
  • At blood upon the stone and street.
  • So we laid ready hand to sword
  • And boldly spoke some bitter word;
  • But they were stubborn still, and stood
  • Fierce frowning as a winter wood,
  • And mutt'ring something of the crime
  • Of blood upon a temple stone,
  • As if the first that it had known.

  •  We strode on through each massive door
  • With clash of steel at heel, and with
  • Some swords all red and ready drawn.
  • I traced the sharp edge of my sword
  • Along both marble wall and floor
  • For crack or crevice; there was none.
  • From one vast mount of marble stone
  • The mighty temple had been cored
  • By nut-brown children of the sun,
  • When stars were newly bright and blithe
  • Of song along the rim of dawn,
  • A mighty marble monolith!

  • III.

  •  Through marches through the mazy wood
  • And may be through too much of blood,
  • At last we came down to the seas.
  • A city stood, white wall'd, and brown
  • With age, in nest of orange trees;
  • And this we won and many a town
  • And rancho reaching up and down,
  • Then rested in the red-hot days
  • Beneath the blossom'd orange trees,
  • Made drowsy with the drum of bees,
  • And drank in peace the south-sea breeze,
  • Made sweet with sweeping boughs of bays,

  •  Well! there were maidens, shy at first,
  • And then, ere long, not over shy,
  • Yet pure of soul and proudly chare.
  • No love on earth has such an eye!
  • No land there is, is bless'd or curs'd
  • With such a limb or grace of face,
  • Or gracious form, or genial air!
  • In all the bleak North-land not one
  • Hath been so warm of soul to me
  • As coldest soul by that warm sea,
  • Beneath the bright hot centred sun.

  •  No lands where northern ices are
  • Approach, or ever dare compare
  • With warm loves born beneath the sun
  • The one the cold white steady star,
  • The lifted shifting sun the one.
  • I grant you fond, I grant you fair,
  • I grant you honor trust and truth,
  • And years as beautiful as youth,
  • And many years beneath the sun,
  • And faith as fix'd as any star;
  • But all the North-land hath not one
  • So warm of soul as sun-maids are.

  •  I was but in my boyhood then,—
  • I count my fingers over, so,
  • And find it years and years ago,
  • And I am scarcely yet of men.
  • But I was tall and lithe and fair,
  • With rippled tide of yellow hair,
  • And prone to mellowness of heart,
  • While she was tawny-red like wine,
  • With black hair boundless as the night.
  • As for the rest I knew my part,
  • At least was apt, and willing quite
  • To learn, to listen, and incline
  • To teacher warm and wise as mine.

  •  O bright, bronzed maidens of the Sun!
  • So fairer far to look upon
  • Than curtains of the Solomon,
  • Or Kedar's tents, or any one,
  • Or any thing beneath the Sun!
  • What follow'd then? What has been done?
  • And said, and writ, and read, and sung?
  • What will be writ and read again,
  • While love is life, and life remain?—
  • While maids will heed, and men have tongue?

  •  What follow'd then? But let that pass.
  • I hold one picture in my heart,
  • Hung curtain'd, and not any part
  • Of all its dark tint ever has
  • Been look'd upon by any one
  • Beneath the broad all-seeing sun.

  •  Love well who will, love wise who can,
  • But love, be loved, for God is love;
  • Love pure, as cherubim above;
  • Love maids, and hate not any man.
  • Sit as sat we by orange tree,
  • Beneath the broad bough and grape-vine
  • Top-tangled in the tropic shine,
  • Close face to face, close to the sea,
  • And full of the red-centred sun,
  • With grand sea-songs upon the soul,
  • Roll'd melody on melody,
  • As echoes of deep organ's roll,
  • And love, nor question any one.

  •  If God is love, is love not God?
  • As high priests say, let prophets sing,
  • Without reproach or reckoning;
  • This much I say, knees knit to sod,
  • And low voice lifted, questioning.

  •  Let hearts be pure and strong and. true,
  • Let lips be luscious and blood-red,
  • Let earth in gold be garmented
  • And tented in her tent of blue.
  • Let goodly rivers glide between
  • Their leaning willow walls of green,
  • Let all things be fill'd of the sun,
  • And full of warm winds of the sea,
  • And I beneath my vine and tree
  • Take rest, nor war with any one;
  • Then I will thank God with full cause,
  • Say this is well, is as it was.

  •  Let red lips lift, proud curl'd to kiss,
  • And round limbs lean and raise and reach
  • In love too passionate for speech,
  • Too full of blessedness and bliss
  • For anything but this and this;
  • Let luscious lips lean hot to kiss
  • And swoon in love, while all the air
  • Is redolent with balm of trees,
  • And mellow with the song of bees,
  • While birds sit singing everywhereAnd you will have not any more
  • Than I in boyhood, by that shore
  • Of olives, had in years of yore.

  •  Let the unclean think things unclean;
  • I swear tip-toed, with lifted hands,
  • That we were pure as sea-wash'd sands,
  • That not one coarse thought came between;
  • Believe or disbelieve who will,
  • Unto the pure all things are pure;
  • As for the rest, I can endure
  • Alike your good will or their ill.

  •  Aye! she was rich in blood and gold —
  • More rich in love, grown over-bold
  • From its own consciousness of strength.
  • How warm! Oh, not for any cause
  • Could I declare how warm she was,
  • In her brown beauty and hair's length.
  • We loved in the sufficient sun,
  • We lived in elements of fire,
  • For love is fire il fierce desire;
  • Yet lived as pure as priest and nun.

  •  We lay slow rocking by the bay
  • In slim canoe beneath the crags
  • Thick-topp'd with palm, like sweeping flags
  • Between us and the burning day.
  • The alligator's head lay low
  • Or lifted from his rich rank fern,
  • And watch'd us and the tide by turn,
  • As we slow cradled to and fro.

  •  And slow we cradled on till night,
  • And told the old tale, overtold,
  • As misers in recounting gold
  • Each time to take a new delight.
  • With her pure passion-given grace
  • She drew her warm self close to me;
  • And her two brown hands on my knee,
  • And her two black eyes in my face,
  • She then grew sad and guess'd at ill,
  • And in the future seem'd to see
  • With woman's ken of prophecy;
  • Yet proffer'd her devotion still.
  • And plaintive so she gave a sign,
  • A token cut of virgin gold,
  • That all her tribe should ever hold
  • Its wearer as some one divine,
  • Nor touch him with a hostile hand.
  • And I in turn gave her a blade,
  • A dagger, worn as well by maid
  • As man, in that half lawless land.
  • It had a massive silver hilt,
  • It had a keen and cunning blade,
  • A gift by chief and comrades made
  • For reckless blood at Rivas spilt.
  • " Show this, " said I, " too well'tis known,
  • And worth a hundred lifted spears,
  • Should ill beset your sunny years;
  • There is not one in Walker's band,
  • But at the sight of this alone,
  • Will reach a brave and ready hand,
  • And make your right, or wrong, his own."

  • IV.

  •  Love while'tis day; night cometh soon,
  • Wherein no man or maiden may;
  • Love in the strong young prime of day;
  • Drink drunk with love in ripe red noon,
  • Red noon of love and life and sun;
  • Walk in love's light as in sunshine,
  • Drink in that sun as drinking wine,
  • Drink swift, nor question any one;
  • For fortunes change, as man or moon,
  • And wane like warm full days of June.

  •  Oh Love, so fair of promises,
  • Bend here thy brow, blow here thy kiss,
  • Bend here thy bow above the storm
  • But once, if only this once more.
  • Comes there no patient Christ to save,
  • Touch and re-animate thy form
  • Long three days dead and in the grave:
  • Spread here thy silken net of let;
  • Since fortunes change, turn and forget,
  • Since man must fall for some sharp sin,
  • Be thou the pit that I fall in;
  • I seek no safer fall than this.
  • Since man must die for some dark sin,
  • Blind leading blind, let come to this,
  • And my death crime be one deep kiss.

  • V.

  •  Ill comes disguised in many forms:
  • Fair winds are but a prophecy
  • Of foulest winds full soon to be
  • The brighter these, the blacker they;
  • The clearest night has darkest day,
  • And brightest days bring blackest storms.
  • There came reverses to our arms;
  • I saw the signal-light's alarms
  • All night red-crescenting the bay.
  • The foe poured down a flood next day
  • As strong as tides when tides are high,
  • And drove us bleeding to the sea,
  • Inl such wild haste of flight that we
  • Had hardly time to arm and fly.

  •  Blown from the shore, borne far at sea,
  • I lifted my two hands on high
  • With wild soul plashing to the sky,
  • And cried, "0 more than crowns to me,
  • Farewell at last to love and thee!"
  • I walked the deck, I kiss'd my hand
  • Back to the far and fading shore,
  • And bent a knee as to implore,
  • Until the last dark head of land
  • Slid down behind the dimpled sea.

  •  At last I sank in troubled sleep,
  • A very child, rock'd by the deep,
  • Sad questioning the fate of her
  • Before the savage conqueror.

  •  The loss of comrades, power, place,
  • A city wall'd, cool shaded ways,
  • Cost me no care at all; somehow
  • I only saw her sad brown face,
  • And—I was younger then than now.

  •  Red flashed the sun across the deck,
  • Slow flapped the idle sails. and slow
  • The black ship cradled to and fro.
  • Afar my city lay, a speck
  • Of white against a line of blue;
  • Around, half lounging on the deck,
  • Some comrades chatted two by two.
  • I held a new-fill'd glass of wine,
  • And with the Mate talk'd as in play
  • Of fierce events of yesterday,
  • To coax his light life into mine.

  •  He jerked the wheel, as slow he said,
  • Low laughing with averted head,
  • And so, half sad: "You bet they'll fight;
  • They follow'd in canim, canoe,
  • A perfect fleet, that on the blue
  • Lay dancing till the mid of night.
  • Would you believe! one little cuss—
  • (He turned his stout head slow sidewise,
  • And'neath his hat-rim took the skies)—,
  • "In petticoats did follow us
  • The livelong night, and at the dawn
  • Iler boat lay rockin,, in the lee,
  • Scarce one short pistol-shot from me."
  • This said the mate, half mournfully,
  • Then peck'd at us; for he had drawn,
  • By bright light heart and homely wit,
  • A knot of men around the wheel,
  • Which he stood whirling like a reel,
  • For the still ship reck'd not of it.

  •  With eyes slow lifting to the brine,
  • Swift swept the instant far by mine;
  • The bronzed mate listed, shook his head,
  • Spirted a stream of ambier wide
  • Across and over the ship side,
  • Jerk'd at the wheel, and slow replied:

  •  "She had a dagger in her hand,
  • She rose, she raised it, tried to stand,
  • But fell, and so upset herself;
  • Yet still the poor brown savage elf,
  • Each time the long light wave would toss
  • And lift her form from out the sea,
  • Would shake a sharp bright blade at me,
  • With rich hilt chased a cunning cross.
  • At last she sank, but s ti ll the same
  • She shook her dagger in the air,
  • As if to still defy and dare,
  • And sinking seem'd to call your name."

  •  I let my wine glass crashing fall,
  • I rush'd across the deck, and all
  • The sea I swept and swept again,
  • With lifted hand, with eye and glass,
  • But all was idle and in vain.
  • I saw a red-bill'd sea-gull pass,
  • A petrel sweeping round and round,
  • I heard the far white sea-surf sound,
  • But no sign could I hear or see
  • Of one so more than seas to me.

  •  I cursed the ship, the shore, the sea,
  • The brave brown mate, the bearded men;
  • I had a fever then, and then
  • Ship, shore and sea were one to me;
  • And weeks we on the dead waves lay,
  • And I more truly dead than they.
  • At last some rested on an isle;
  • The few strong-breasted, with a smile,
  • Returning to the hostile shore,
  • Scarce counting of the pain or cost,
  • Scarce recking if they won or lost;
  • They sought but action, ask'd no more;
  • They counted life but as a game,
  • With full per cent. against them, and
  • Staked all upon a single hand,
  • And lost or won, content the same.

  •  I never saw my chief again,
  • I never sought again the shore,
  • Or saw my white-walled city more.
  • I could not bear the more than pain
  • At sight of blossom'd orange trees,
  • Or blended song of birds and bees,
  • The sweeping shadows of the palm
  • Or spicy breath of bay and balm.
  • And, striving to forget the while,
  • I wandered through a dreary isle,
  • Here black with juniper, and there
  • Made white with goats in shaggy coats,
  • The only things that anywhere
  • We found with life in all the land,
  • Save birds that ran long-bill'd and brown,
  • Long legg'd and still as shadows are,
  • Like dancing shadows up and down
  • The sea-rim on the swelt'ring sand.

  •  The warm sea laid his dimpled face,
  • With all his white locks smoothed in place,
  • As if asleep against the land;
  • Great turtles slept upon his breast,
  • As thick as eggs in any nest;
  • I could have touch'd them with my hand.

  • VI.

  •  I would some things were dead and hid,
  • Well dead and buried deep as hell,
  • With recollection dead as well,
  • And resurrection God forbid.
  • They irk me with their weary spell
  • Of fascination, eye to eye.
  • And hot mesmeric serpent hiss,
  • Through all the dull eternal days.
  • Let them turn by, go on their ways,
  • Let them depart or let me die;
  • For life is but a beggar's lie,
  • And as for death, I grin at it;
  • I do not care one whiff or whit
  • Whether it be or that or this.

  •  I give my hand; the world is wide;
  • Then farewell memories of yore,
  • Between us let strife be no more;
  • Turn as you choose to either side;
  • Say, Fare-you-well, shake hands and say—
  • Speak fair, and say with stately grace,
  • Hand clutching hand, face bent to face—
  • Farewell forever and a day.

  •  O passion-toss'd and piteous past,
  • Part now, part well, part wide apart,
  • As ever ships on ocean slid
  • Down, down the sea, hull, sail, and mast:
  • And in the album of my heart
  • Let hide the pictures of your face,
  • With other pictures in their place,
  • Slid over like a coffin's lid.

  • VII.

  •  The days and grass grow long together;
  • They now fell short and crisp again,
  • And all the fair face of the main
  • Grew dark and wrinkled as the weather.
  • Through all the summer sun's decline
  • Fell news of triumphs and defeats,
  • Of hard advances, hot retreats—
  • Then days and days and not a line.

  •  At last one night they came. I knew
  • Ere yet the boat had touched the land
  • That all was lost; they were so few
  • But he, the leader, led no more.
  • The proud chief still disdain'd to fly,
  • But like one wreck'd, clung to the shore,
  • And struggled on, and struggling fell
  • From power to a prison-cell,
  • And only left that cell to die.

  •  My recollection, like a ghost,
  • Goes from this sea to that sea-side,
  • Goes and returns as turns the tide,
  • Then turns again unto the coast.
  • I know not which I mourn the most,
  • My chief or my Unwedded wife.
  • The one was as the lordly sun,
  • To joy in, bask in, and admire;
  • T he peaceful moon was as the one,
  • To love, to look to, and desire;
  • And both a part of my young life.

  • VIII.

  •  Years after, shelter'd from the sun
  • Beneath a Sacramento bay,
  • A black Muchacho by me lay
  • Along the long grass crisp and dun,
  • His brown mule browsing by his side,
  • And told with all a Peon's pride
  • How he once fought; how long and well,
  • Broad breast to breast, red hand to hand,
  • Against a foe for his fair land,
  • And how the fierce invader fell;
  • And, artless, told me how he died:

  •  How walked he from the prison-wall
  • Dress'd like some prince for a parade,
  • And made no note of man or maid,
  • But gazed out calmly over all.
  • Hie look'd far off, half paused, and then
  • Above the mottled sea of men
  • He kiss'd his thin hand to the sun;
  • Then smiled so proudly none had known
  • But he was stepping to a throne,
  • Yet took no note of any one.

  •  A nude brown beggar Peon child,
  • Encouraged as the captive smiled,
  • Look'd up, half scared, half pitying;
  • He stopp'd, he caught it from the sands,
  • Put bright coins in its two brown hands,
  • Then strode on like another king.

  •  Two deep, a musket's length, they stood
  • A-front, in sandals, nude, and dun
  • As death and darkness wove in one,
  • Their thick lips thirsting for his blood.
  • He took each black hand one by one,
  • And, smiling with a patient grace,
  • Forgave them all and took his place.

  •  He bared his broad brow to the sun,
  • Gave one long, last look to the sky,
  • The white wing'd clouds that hurried by,
  • The olive hills in orange hue;
  • A last list to the cockatoo
  • That hung by beak from mango-bough
  • Hard by, and hung and sung as though
  • He never was to sing again,
  • Hung all red-crown'd and robed in green,
  • With belts of gold and blue between.—

  •  A bow, a touch of heart, a pall
  • Of purple smoke, a crash, a thud,
  • A warrior's raiment rolled in blood,
  • A face in dust and—that was all.

  •  Success had made him more than king;
  • Defeat made him the vilest thing
  • In name, contempt or hate can bring;
  • So much the leaded dice of war
  • Do make or mar of character.

  •  In all disgrace; say of the dead
  • His heart was black, his hands were red
  • Say this much, and be satisfied;
  • Gloat over it all undenied.
  • I simply say he was my friend
  • 'When strong of hand and fair of fame:
  • Dead and disgraced, I stand the same
  • To him, and so shall to the end.

  •  I lay this crude wreath on his dust,
  • Inwove with sad, sweet memories
  • Recall'd here by these colder seas.
  • I leave the wild bird with his trust,
  • To sing and say him nothing wrong;
  • I wake no rivalry of song.

  •  He lies low in the levell'd sand,
  • Unshelter'd front the tropic sun,
  • And now of all he knew not one
  • Will speak him fair in that far land.
  • Perhaps'twas this that made me seek,
  • Disguised, his grave one winter-tide;
  • A weakness for the weaker side,
  • A siding with the helpless weak.

  •  A palm not far held out a hand,
  • Hard by a long green bamboo swung,
  • And bent like some great bow unstrung,
  • And quiver'd like a willow wand;
  • Perch'd on its fruits that crooked hang,
  • Beneath a broad banana's leaf,
  • A bird in rainbow splendor sang
  • A low, sad song of temper'd grief.

  •  No sod, no sign, no cross nor stone
  • But at his side a cactus green
  • Upheld its lances long and keeln;
  • It stood in sacred sands alone,
  • Flat-palm'd and fierce with lifted spears;
  • One bloom of crimson crown'd its head,'
  • A drop of blood, so bright, so red,
  • Yet redolent as roses' tears.

  •  In my left hand I held a shell,
  • All rosy lipp'd and pearly red;
  • I laid it by his lowly bed,
  • For he did love so passing well
  • The grand songs of the solemn sea.
  • 0 shell! sing well, wild, with a will,
  • When storms blow loud and birds be still,
  • The wildest sea-song known to thee!

  •  I said some things with folded hands,
  • Soft whisper'd in the dim sea-sound,
  • And eyes held humbly to the ground,
  • And frail knees sunken in the sands.
  • He had done more than this for me,
  • And yet I could not well do more:
  • I turn'd me down the olive shore,
  • And set a sad face to the sea.

  • LONDON 1871